(And it takes a lot more than three cats to be a crazy cat lady. Just be sure to maintain human friendships as well, and I’m sure you’ll be fine.)

Also, do your cats happen to be polydactyl? Just asking.

Perhaps you aren’t guilt free, but I believe real life is not bound by karma. It’s true that every action has consequences, and perhaps you have yet to face your own, but the universe does not play at balancing all our mercies and injustices on a set of scales to make sure everything is equal. Sometimes the unvierse is cruel, and we don’t know why. Sometimes people are the cause of that cruelty, other times it seems entirely arbitary: we’re under assault from the world, nature, and each other. But every taken in cat from a shelter, every written word, ever voice shouting out into the dark, has meaning, and serves to lighten the darkness that we’re all forced to walk through at some point or another.

You have spoken to us, and by being here, you have made a difference to us. We owe you that. You are NOT a monster. No more than any other human being.

I don’t have your eloquence, so I’m going to borrow words now from a man who does: This is not a game, and here and now, you are alive. Take comfort in it. Tomorrow’s coming.

Everyone deserves a second chance, a shot at happiness and forgiveness. I’ve grown fond of you and I wish you the best.

And you don’t know for sure that you can’t take Shelley with you. I’m very strongly hoping you can, and in fact that’s part of the plan I came up with. I’d be terribly disappointed if that part didn’t work out.

You are not a monster, Adam. Plain and simple.

Yeah, I know this world is screwed up. It’s always the same wherever you go. However, never let that stop you. You have strength, right? You have massive stores of knowledge that even I may not ever match, right? Then stand up to the whole world if you have to! Find your wish, your ultimate desire, and then go for it! Don’t let one, two, three, or however many failures slow you down. When you make a mistake, acknowledge it, learn from it, and come back next time to do it better! Even if you think what you wish is impossible, don’t ever slow down. Keep on moving forward, one step at a time, growing and becoming stronger and stronger with every moment, getting ever closer to your goal! Some people say it would be futile, but I say that if you strive for something true and good, even if you never reach it, the only thing that matters is that you sought it with everything you had. In the end, you won’t regret your actions, because they weren’t wrong.

So stand up, face your fears, fight your demons, and walk through the dark of your past, and always remember that as long as we exist, no matter how far away from us you seem, we are always there at your back, cheering you on! We will show you the way, and though you may face trouble as you go, we have faith in you, faith that you can overcome the hate that holds you back.

~Sicon

P.S. Don’t worry about the cat. We wouldn’t deprive a kitty of her human, now would we?

I know it might feel like the endgame. But never give up, Adam.

I’ll be honest, for once: I don’t know who you were, what you did, before you came here. But you know what? I don’t care. Because since you came, since you started this blog, I have gotten to know you, and the Adam I have gotten to know is a good, bright, compassionate human being. Never let anyone, anything, make you forget that.

I can’t give you happiness or fulfillment, Adam; that’s not in my power. But I can tell you this: You have love. You have respect. These things are yours and cannot be lost, cannot be taken.

I know wherever life takes you, you will make the most of it. You will persevere, Adam, and I know you will succeed. You won’t, however, rise to be more than a monster– because you have already done that. You have already risen.

You, too, are a beautiful person.

Love,
Qara-Xuan